2007-03-13 - 9:17 a.m.

Its been forever since i've updated. I moved yet again to another new city. I am still with the same boy i was with in NYC. I am currently 3 months pregnant with our first child. I will be 26 this year. I work a full time job. I own a house.

Three months pregnant and i have already gained 8lbs. I was 100% bulimic for the past three years and kept down basically no food. Since i found out i am pregnant, i have been eating and keeping food down and my metabolism is completely fucked up and hence the huge weight gain already. I dont like being pregnanct, although i want this baby but the birth is scaring the hell out of me...the actual pain of giving birth, i mean. I feel so fat and gross already. I have thrown up a few times but i didnt binge and it was mostly due to morning sickness. I am due in october. This eating thing is driving me insane. I hate it.

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